Part I

I was a dim-witted bolshie
Then you’ve stop by and alter me
Show me the perfectness in my impurity
And handle a glimpse of light for me

1, 2, 3

I made this poem during the first three months together.Bri made a poem during our 4 months and he titled it fantastic four... We're three years now turning four....
1, 2, 3 ooopps were fighting
With this nonsense simple thing
1 second of discomfort then three minutes of sweet nothing
One minute of crying then three hours of laughing

We’re confuse in a blink
Glad we’re peaceful in a click
There can be one two three thunder in our love
But we have three ways of conquering the dumb

It was not just 1,2,3 doubts and fears
Yet you’ll still hold and hug me right here
A 1,2,3 misunderstanding and shouting
Hope we have lots of 1,2,3 ways of resolving

It was 1,2,3 months with you
I’m indeed happy not just 1,2,3,
It will not going to be 1,2,3, of darkness
Coz there will be an infinite light of eternity

It will be never ending struggle
Caring and loving each other in 1,2,3 of forever
Coz having you in my life
Is the most precious gift I have received

Try Fantastic Four A poem made by bri...

The First Glimpse of a False Fairytale

The First Glimpse of a False Fairytale
The paramount things the could happen to someone’s life is to feel contented of what she had. Life is not the easy to dwell with. After hardworks in schools, you’ll have to face the veracity. The true world of a human life. The world that will mold her as a human thru experiences in works and love life. No matter how hard you day was in your daily work, life gets easier when you find your prince charming. Yeah!!! Such a nice thing to happen. Every person will always love to have a fairytale that is happening to us.
It’s always feel good at first. Thinking your life won’t be the same again if you loose him. Oh yes!!!! Such a cliche. I hate to think that somewhere in my life my dream fairytale came true. It was months of contentment and happiness…. But then there such things that was not meant to be most especially if both of you can’t fight the evil coming….and the worst part of it… if one of you gave up easily…. And to make your world more miserable you mess up your life. You busted everything because of your stupidity that you can’t go on without him… Sad isn’t it? There will always come a time that you think you have loose everything when you lost him and because you are so vulnerable you let yourself trap in the dark making your most dangerous and idiot decision that brought pain and sufferings. How cruel!!!

After sometimes you’ll find yourself thinking and wishing you’ve done better that loosing all the virtues and righteousness that you have. Thinking to avenge to your prince charming who ruined your stupid life. Unfortunately, no matter how you feel mad at him,… you’ll find yourself blaming your real self for being so deaden and moron that time.

That was a bogus fairytale…For the prince charming is an charlatan of love. Now I’m here…thinking of what I have at this moment of my life. For God gave someone who will cover me with white cloth of compassion that he has…Imagine after years of darkness a white knight will come to erase the dimness of your past…

Variety of Feelings

The View of Reality

And after 5 years.... I found out the stupid answers...May be people were destined to feel and experienced those things as a part of growing up....

The Heartrending Answers

My guts were not enough for you to stay

For you are flying so high that causes me to stray

It leads me not to our reverie of blue moon

And I was thrown so hard in the black hole at noon

If you go for it, go all the way that’s what I say

So I follow the path that where you may lay

This leads me to my devastating nightmare

That brought me pain, and sufferings that I bear

I became happy with you the moment I flout

But only a glimpse and suddenly burst out

The idyllic forever of us is only an imagination

And I was awakened by your stupid rejection

All my queries were answered after the separation

For our ending is like a bitter sensation

For when the sunset begins the moon starts to mount

To let the sun knows she was destined to be left out

Pal, you can check out The Questions, a poem I made 5 years ago....

A View of the Past

I wrote this poem 5 years ago when I was absolutely and super in love with someone. He gave me my true fairytale. That for a few months I felt so different, I felt so contented which that time I think that something will be coming....something I an scared of.... So I created this, my doubts, queries of what lies ahead....

The Questions

I believe that no guts no glory

But are my guts enough to fight for your love

Will it lead me to the blue moon?

Or end up to the dark moon?

I believe that if you go for it, go all the way

But is going all the way will lead me to a blissful ending?
will it lead me to our eternal  paradise

Or will only bring me anguish?

I believe that if you follow all the rules, you miss all the fun

I’ve defy those convention just to be with you

Will that fun last forever?

Or is it only for now?

Those are the queries that I can’t retort

And I am frightened that I may be mistaken

Will we end up just like the sunset?

Which will rise after the lonely night?

I hope you'll find time to read poem I made after 4 years may be..... I found The Heartrending Answers.....

The View of Reality

And after 5 years.... I found out the stupid answers...May be people were destined to feel and experienced those things as a part of growing up....

The Heartrending Answers

My guts were not enough for you to stay

For you are flying so high that causes me to stray

It leads me not to our reverie of blue moon

And I was thrown so hard in the black hole at noon

If you go for it, go all the way that’s what I say

So I follow the path that where you may lay

This leads me to my devastating nightmare

That brought me pain, and sufferings that I bear

I became happy with you the moment I flout

But only a glimpse and suddenly burst out

The idyllic forever of us is only an imagination

And I was awakened by your stupid rejection

All my queries were answered after the separation

For our ending is like a bitter sensation

For when the sunset begins the moon starts to mount

To let the sun knows she was destined to be left out

As suggested by Eric... I edited my post... I don't know if this what he mean....   

The Nights

We sat there and lay my head on you
You put your hands around my waist
Stare each other, smile and the laugh
Suddenly the night seems so complete

We stand there; I’m at your back
And circled my hands around you
You look at me, a few seconds we kissed
Then, the night seems so perfect

We stop there, stay for a few minutes,
You throw a coin, and hope you wished
Something for us, then we prayed
Suddenly, the night seems so peaceful

I sat there and look at the sky
Put my arms around me and hug myself
I glance at the place and think for a while
Suddenly there something missing in my night

I stand there and laugh, lay my back at the wall
Look forward pretending that you are there
and in a seconds tears fell down from my eyes
Then my night feels so empty

I stop there, stay for a few minutes
Throw a coin, wishing that I'm not alone
Praying for the time that I won't feel incomplete
That you'll be back to fill my life with love again

Try

I try to fly to reach you
Till my wings get tired of following you
Till my hope fades
May be it’s time for my own façade

I try to erase the stain you brought
To rejuvenate, to be alive again
To stand and fix myself again
From the squall that you brought

I try so hard to forget what happened
To forgive myself from being so weak
To absolve myself of losing my virtue
Because of the torment that you brought

Try… just try to erase the past
Try and try till I gathered myself
Try and try till I bring back my virtues
Until the day come for yourself salvation