Lifetime Secret

Everybody has their own lifetime secret. Yeah it could be something that you don’t want other people to know because you done it just to fulfill your self satisfaction, to do things that you think you’re not capable or to risk everything just to fill the same thing that you felt before. It’s an irony to life that you wish to do things that you know can hurt you in the end or that will take away everything that you have fixed before. It’s so hard to risk everything just to try something new in your life or just to satisfy you again. How come that there are people who will come to your life, take away what you have and then after a decade he will ask you again for one time to have you lifetime secret with him….. It is a mixed emotions and feelings…. Come with him for one hour and lose yourself again…. Hate to think that you became that kind of person in someone’s life. Someone who is just for fun or someone who will just fulfill some of his needs….. Hate it so much!!!!! I hate that a person you have loved so much before, that you have wished to died when he left will only talk to you because of a lifetime secret……..